Time has passed.

So it has been forever since I have wrote here.  


Biggest issue had to save money so no internet.  I can try and do one at least once a week.  This week might be special because I will be around internet.


UPDATE on life.


I stopped talking that horrible med called wellbutrin.  Great for not smoking, but horrible for the brain.  It was very hard for me to function and deal with life with that crap in my system.  Every hour, every minute, every second of the day was thinking and contemplating how I was going to kill myself.  Horrible I know.  Part of me was screaming out for anyone and everyone to help me deal with this.  I know the thoughts weren't even normal.  As soon as that stuff was out of my system all horrible thoughts were gone.


So I was put on Citalopram, formally known as Celexa.  Some things say its a anti-depressant, but is also used for  anxiety disorder, and posttraumatic stress disorder.  It is taken with Buspar, is used to treat anxiety disorders.  So with the two together, it helps well with my functioning.  I still have my off days, but who doesn't?  


Thanks for reading again.