Have you ever made a HUGE mistake and beat yourself up everyday for the rest of your life?  I have and it still bothers me so much I can't stand it.  I would say it has contributed to my emotional state.  I walked away from someone thinking, "if it's meant to be he will come back."  Well...end to the sad story he left and really, barley ever looks back.  I feel like I am nothing to him.  He promised my Dad that no matter what happened he would be supportive and he hasn't showed me that at all.  Every time he acts like I don't exist I don't even want to take another breath to live...  Had to try and get that out so I didn't do something nonproductive.  I'd rather have him back and be happy for the rest of my life and deal with the trash talk, then to be miserable, hate myself, and have no hope to live by. My heart is broken one of many reasons and this is one.

P.s. If you see this at least love our son like you once loved me.  Unconditional, he misses you.