I know I said I was going to finish Part 3. I was planning too, but got side tracked with my emotional state. I had a doctor's appointment Tuesday. I started Wellbutrin, Tuesday night. (Wellbutrin- is an antidepressant medication, and is used to treat major depressive disorder.) Hopefully it works this time, last time it made me want to kill myself more :/ It makes my mind dizzy, and tired. All I can say is I have gotten the best sleep the past two nights in forever. Since it takes at least three weeks for it to completely settle in the body, I won't know if it will help everything.
At this point I want to run from this blog because it has said in that I am very vulnerable, but I decided to keep going on. I got a short report of my evaluation. Honestly, I am kind of embarrassed, but I will type it out.
"She presently complaining of both cognitive and emotional difficulties that began following her 2008 medically-induced coma. Our preliminary findings suggest she is exhibiting cognitive deficits associated with the frontal lobe region, language, cognitive flexibility, and short-term memory. She demonstrates difficulty with concentrating and attention which could not only be attributed to cognitive impairments but also emotional distress.
After meeting with her, I believe she would benefit from a combination of mental health counseling and medication management to address her depression and anxiety symptoms. Ms. ****** is set up for an appointment with a therapist in our office to address her emotional symptoms ans teach her cognitive-behavioral skills for coping with her cognitive, emotional, and behavioral impairments."
I have fallen a bit down, but have been trying so hard not to give up. It is so hard, last night I lost it. I couldn't handle not having one person's opinion that means everything to me. Oh well that's life huh?
Thanks for the support! Feel free to ask questions or every say something ANYTHING! Maybe a :) face just something.
Chin up love, sounds like you've had a tough time. Sure you've got more people who care than you think. Take care from your mate across the pond. :-)
ReplyDeleteProbably Greg. My reasoning is just to get it out so it doesn't bother me more. Thanks for the support.
ReplyDeleteSo this will do.... :-), =) and <(") (meant to be a penguin, lol)
ReplyDeleteHang in there. The road is long and tough, but when you get through it all, you will flourish.
Trina_Cl
lmao your penguin makes me laugh at least. You and your characters! Ty Trina.
ReplyDeleteI think you're incredibly strong. Stronger than you think. As strong as you need to be. You have a lot of crap to wade through yet, but just keep taking it one step at a time. Brains are amazing at re-routing things. You'll improve in ways you couldn't have imagined.
ReplyDeleteI sure hope so. Thank you Emily for reading. It helps knowing you have been through the same.
DeleteYes. I know where you're coming from. You're not crazy, you're healing. You have a right to feel angry, frustrated, depressed and you also have the right to take as much time as YOU need to heal. You don't heal according to anyone else's schedule.
ReplyDeleteGood to know.
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